I've been back with Witt since around 3am. His CO2 has been rising
again and he is breathing fast even for Witt...respiratory rate
100-120. That's about 2 breaths a second. Give it a short try. We
would pass out breathing like that! Witt has a fever now and they are
hoping that's what's causing the faster breathing. It was discovered a
couple of days ago that he has an infection in his lungs(possibly a
result of being on the vent!). Doctors are still holding off putting him back on the vent.
They are hoping Witt can just get through this fever. I got my
computer out to continue my quest to watch all of the first 5 seasons
of Lost but this is where God took me...to "My Utmost For His Highest"...much better
than being lost in Lost!
From Oswald Chambers:
"I am ready to be offered." It is a transaction of will, not of sentiment. Tell God you are ready to be offered; then let the consequences be what they may, there is no strand of complaint now, no matter what God chooses. God puts you through the crisis in private, no one person can help an other. Externally the life may be the same; the difference is in will. Go through the crisis in will, then when it comes externally there will be no thought of the cost. If you do not transact in will with God along this line, you will end in awakening sympathy for yourself.
"Bind the sacrifice with cords, even unto the horns of the altar." The altar means fire - burning and purification and insulation for one purpose only, the destruction of every affinity that God has not started and of every attachment that is not an attachment in God.You do not destroy it, God does; you bind the sacrifice to the horns of the altar; and see that you do not give way to self-pity when the fire begins. After this way of fire, there is nothing that oppresses or depresses. When the crisis arises, you realize that things cannot touch you as they used to do. What is your way of fire?
Tell God you are ready to be offered, and God will prove Himself to be all you ever dreamed He would be.
I am reminded of one of Mel's early emails to everyone where she said if God could give His son then she could do this! This sentence... "Externally the life may be the same; the difference is in will"...sort of jumped out to me. The life(circumstance) may be the same but by wanting and finding peace in God's will keeps me from feeling sorry for myself. And maybe the most important sentence for me:
"After this way of fire, there is nothing that oppresses or depresses. When the crisis arises, you realize that things cannot touch you as they used to do."
O, that things...whatever life has to throw at me...cannot touch me like they used to. THEY CAN'T STEAL MY JOY!!!! What an amazing God we have!!! He would not let me go through this(or Mel and Austan) and also have my joy stolen...that would be too much!
I was born on October 23, 2008. I weighed 5 pounds, 5 ounces and was 19 inches long. Austan and Melanie Lupher are my loving parents here on Earth. My heavenly Father is sharing me with them. I am a miracle and a blessing to countless.