"MY UTMOST FOR HIS HIGHEST'

I've been back with Witt since around 3am. His CO2 has been rising

again and he is breathing fast even for Witt...respiratory rate

100-120. That's about 2 breaths a second. Give it a short try. We

would pass out breathing like that! Witt has a fever now and they are

hoping that's what's causing the faster breathing. It was discovered a

couple of days ago that he has an infection in his lungs(possibly a

result of being on the vent!). Doctors are still holding off putting him back on the vent.

They are hoping Witt can just get through this fever. I got my

computer out to continue my quest to watch all of the first 5 seasons

of Lost but this is where God took me...to "My Utmost For His Highest"...much better

than being lost in Lost!

From Oswald Chambers:

"I am ready to be offered." It is a transaction of will, not of
sentiment. Tell God you are ready to be offered; then let the
consequences be what they may, there is no strand of complaint now, no
matter what God chooses. God puts you through the crisis in private,
no one person can help an other. Externally the life may be the same;
the difference is in will. Go through the crisis in will, then when it
comes externally there will be no thought of the cost. If you do not
transact in will with God along this line, you will end in awakening
sympathy for yourself.

"Bind the sacrifice with cords, even unto the horns of the altar." The
altar means fire - burning and purification and insulation for one
purpose only, the destruction of every affinity that God has not
started and of every attachment that is not an attachment in God.You
do not destroy it, God does; you bind the sacrifice to the horns of
the altar; and see that you do not give way to self-pity when the fire
begins. After this way of fire, there is nothing that oppresses or
depresses. When the crisis arises, you realize that things cannot
touch you as they used to do. What is your way of fire?

Tell God you are ready to be offered, and God will prove Himself to be
all you ever dreamed He would be.

I am reminded of one of Mel's early emails to everyone where she said
if God could give His son then she could do this! This sentence...
"Externally the life may be the same; the difference is in
will"...sort of jumped out to me. The life(circumstance) may be the
same but by wanting and finding peace in God's will keeps me from
feeling sorry for myself. And maybe the most important sentence for me:

"After this way of fire, there is nothing that oppresses or depresses.
When the crisis arises, you realize that things cannot touch you as
they used to do."

O, that things...whatever life has to throw at me...cannot touch me
like they used to. THEY CAN'T STEAL MY JOY!!!! What an amazing God we
have!!! He would not let me go through this(or Mel and Austan) and
also have my joy stolen...that would be too much!